How are we just supposed to move on with life without you here?
Can someone just tell me?
This wasn’t supposed to happen
You can’t convince me otherwise
I’m sitting at my desk and I can’t concentrate
I can’t do work
I want to grieve
I haven’t had time to
I miss you so much
I didn’t think I would miss you this much
But how could I not?
We formed a really good bond and you supported me so much even though we had just met
We had started to make plans to hang out
Literally the day before you left us
You had been giving me advice on how to rest
We decided on music and sleep
You wanted me to take it easy
We all know I do the most
But you always understood
You never judged
Why would you leave us like this?
I can’t get myself to cry
Every time the tears start to form
I blink them away
I’m at work.
I’m on the train.
I’m walking home.
I can’t cry in public.
I can’t cry in bed.
I can’t do this.