Shall I risk defeat and love again?
Shall I wear my heart upon my sleeve?
Let my guard down to show off my bruises?
How dare you walk into my life
And claim to love it?
How dare you call me your own?
Can’t you see that the beauty you gaze upon is flawed?
Does it not taunt you with its brokenness?
My stomach turns over on itself
How could you let me feel again?
Why must I allow myself to heal
To grieve… to live…?
I can’t sleep
I sit up waiting for you
Waiting to accuse you of these feelings
They well up inside me and I cannot resist
They make me want to run through the hills
I can not
I can only breathe
Breathe with you as you softly dream
Hoping that you dream of me… of us
Dreams that the world cannot imagine
Dreams of us healed and free
Will I ever be free?
So I sit here