God, Pain, Relationships

in loving memory of…

Sitting in a dark church Dang Just lost another Dang Don't have a mother Dang Can't reach my father I want to scream out loud LORD Not. Another. Not another... Didn't we go over this We talked about this I said I couldn't do this anymore I cried to you God... not again

Pain, Self love

Remember Me

i have traveled far beyond return i  struggle to find my way back grappling what seems to be just thin air digging my nails into the wall in order to balance my feet my lungs seem to release air rather than recycle it i cannot see a thing   i remember my mother who once… Continue reading Remember Me

Self love

Tension Headaches

I realized today that I might have a problem I was trying to figure out why I get so worked up sometimes Why I can't leave any stone unturned No I’s undotted And no T’s uncrossed Sometimes I’d get so annoyed with myself for being overwhelmed   I stress myself out to the point of… Continue reading Tension Headaches

Pain, Relationships

Run, baby, run

Yesterday I walked away from the love of my life I walked away from his beautiful face His soft curly hair And his cute broken smile Yesterday I ran away from the love of my life I ran away from his nonchalant attitude His dismissive words And his dispassionate love I am not sure what… Continue reading Run, baby, run

Relationships, Self love, Uncategorized

There is Hope in Christ (tw: suicide)

Death It hurts everyone Please don't die If you think there's no one else on earth who can help you I'll show you that's not the case Even if you think life is not worth living I'll show you that's not the case I'm sorry I didn't come over that one time when you asked… Continue reading There is Hope in Christ (tw: suicide)

Relationships

I’m Sorry

I love you like my ex Loved Me. Sometimes I say I love you when I don’t mean it I’m sorry; I don’t mean that at all I just say it because Well It feels good to say it It feels good to hear it back "I love you" 3 words. 8 letters I love… Continue reading I’m Sorry

Pain

How could you leave us…

How are we just supposed to move on with life without you here? Can someone just tell me? This wasn’t supposed to happen You can’t convince me otherwise   I’m sitting at my desk and I can’t concentrate I can’t do work I want to grieve I haven’t had time to   I miss you… Continue reading How could you leave us…

Pain

When a heart breaks

I want to write about pain Now, pain is not a feeling that can be easily explained Pain hurts. I mean everyone knows that. I have only experienced pain a few times in my life and I am grateful for that Except when I had those experiences, I felt like I would never get out… Continue reading When a heart breaks

Relationships

Hey

Hey I miss you I miss you like flowers miss the sun on a rainy day We haven't talked in a few hours and it is as if my entire heart is being torn apart into tiny little pieces  Slowly A hundred thoughts are racing through my mind about why you haven't responded to my… Continue reading Hey

Blackness, Relationships

Ford

~ This post was inspired by my class on the History of Slavery in the US ~   How the hell does a broken heart get back together again? When the sword of slavery has ripped it apart When the laws of society have held you bound What kind of love do you say this… Continue reading Ford