Blackness, Pain

We’re the lucky ones

We're the lucky ones Only just begun Others leave too young We are the lucky ones --- Where do I even start? I realized that if I just kept thinking and feeling If I didn't write I would implode --- I honestly thought this grieving thing was a momentary I thought... well I hoped. I… Continue reading We’re the lucky ones

Blackness, Pain

Just Like My Mom

Yesterday my friend’s mom died I went to see her I had visited her in the hospital while she was alive She was lively She was beautiful She had a sense of humor She had been bed-ridden for some time now but that did not kill her spirit She had life You know it’s amazing… Continue reading Just Like My Mom

God, Pain, Relationships

in loving memory of…

Sitting in a dark church Dang Just lost another Dang Don't have a mother Dang Can't reach my father I want to scream out loud LORD Not. Another. Not another... Didn't we go over this We talked about this I said I couldn't do this anymore I cried to you God... not again

Pain, Short Story

I Have No One To Hold

In my senior year of college I stopped biting my nails In my senior year of college my mom got sick We heard she was sick in October Again But then she had surgery She had the surgery She got better . So I stopped biting my nails For my mom Because she got better… Continue reading I Have No One To Hold

Pain, Self love

Remember Me

i have traveled far beyond return i  struggle to find my way back grappling what seems to be just thin air digging my nails into the wall in order to balance my feet my lungs seem to release air rather than recycle it i cannot see a thing   i remember my mother who once… Continue reading Remember Me

Relationships, Self love, Uncategorized

There is Hope in Christ (tw: suicide)

Death It hurts everyone Please don't die If you think there's no one else on earth who can help you I'll show you that's not the case Even if you think life is not worth living I'll show you that's not the case I'm sorry I didn't come over that one time when you asked… Continue reading There is Hope in Christ (tw: suicide)


How could you leave us…

How are we just supposed to move on with life without you here? Can someone just tell me? This wasn’t supposed to happen You can’t convince me otherwise   I’m sitting at my desk and I can’t concentrate I can’t do work I want to grieve I haven’t had time to   I miss you… Continue reading How could you leave us…


Why do people have to die?

In the past couple months, 4 people I know or have met have died. They're just gone They're not coming back I don't know if I'll see some of them again Why do people have to die? Why do people have to cry? The worst is when it's untimely. An accident. A terminal illness. Found… Continue reading Why do people have to die?


Death Stings (TW)

Death stings It drags It shakes the world -- Every time someone falls Every time the last breath is released An earthquake A wave of emotion It's unbearable Unthinkable Un-liveable -- It's like I can't breathe myself as I watch you lose your abilities My stomach turns over on itself The floor beneath my feet quivers Goose… Continue reading Death Stings (TW)