Blackness, Pain

Just Like My Mom

Yesterday my friend’s mom died I went to see her I had visited her in the hospital while she was alive She was lively She was beautiful She had a sense of humor She had been bed-ridden for some time now but that did not kill her spirit She had life You know it’s amazing… Continue reading Just Like My Mom

Pain, Relationships

My Broken Heart

where do i begin i figured i would write when the tears stopped im not sure if the fact that they stopped is good or bad but i have to move on somehow i can’t even write about this because im still hurt i haven’t been able to write for a while because when i… Continue reading My Broken Heart

God, Pain, Relationships

in loving memory of…

Sitting in a dark church Dang Just lost another Dang Don't have a mother Dang Can't reach my father I want to scream out loud LORD Not. Another. Not another... Didn't we go over this We talked about this I said I couldn't do this anymore I cried to you God... not again

Pain, Short Story

I Have No One To Hold

In my senior year of college I stopped biting my nails In my senior year of college my mom got sick We heard she was sick in October Again But then she had surgery She had the surgery She got better . So I stopped biting my nails For my mom Because she got better… Continue reading I Have No One To Hold

Pain, Self love

Remember Me

i have traveled far beyond return i  struggle to find my way back grappling what seems to be just thin air digging my nails into the wall in order to balance my feet my lungs seem to release air rather than recycle it i cannot see a thing   i remember my mother who once… Continue reading Remember Me

Relationships, Self love

When Love Returns

When an old flame of love gets rekindled People become skeptical of its willingness to last Will it stand the wave of next flood Or will it crackle under the weight of past guilt   Oh but how sweet it feels To be back with the one you once loved To feel the feelings that… Continue reading When Love Returns

God, Relationships, Self love

I am not alone

Reflecting on God's presence in my life and I think of myself as a child. I stumble blindly throughout life thinking I know where to go, how to do things, crying when I don't get my way and so on. We are all God's children. Literally. Whether old or young, God still sees you as… Continue reading I am not alone

Self love

Tension Headaches

I realized today that I might have a problem I was trying to figure out why I get so worked up sometimes Why I can't leave any stone unturned No I’s undotted And no T’s uncrossed Sometimes I’d get so annoyed with myself for being overwhelmed   I stress myself out to the point of… Continue reading Tension Headaches

Pain, Relationships

Run, baby, run

Yesterday I walked away from the love of my life I walked away from his beautiful face His soft curly hair And his cute broken smile Yesterday I ran away from the love of my life I ran away from his nonchalant attitude His dismissive words And his dispassionate love I am not sure what… Continue reading Run, baby, run